At the beginning...again.

I love New Year's. Not the Eve part so much as the New part and the process of reflecting on the previous year and planning for the next. It's a regluar opportunity to acknowledge where you soared and where you fell short, to feel what it's like to be where you are now, and then- with all of that under consideration- allow yourself to dream a bit about the future. Sounds lovely (to me anyway) but here's the catch- I conveniently forget how much time and courage it takes to really engage in this reflection/projection process in a meaningful way.

Meaningful? What I'm getting at is that the classic New Year's resolution type stuff doesn't have much staying power, right? The most commonly made and broken resolutions-- quit smoking, exercise more, eat better, spend less money, enjoy life to the fullest, get organized, spend more time with family-- are made from this overwhelmingly optimistic place, as if the real block to these things was just that we hadn't declared our resolve to change. Lasting changes in our lives are usually much slower going than a 30-day kickstarting fix. 

The beginning of a new year, for me, is my chance to reckon with the delta between what I say I want my life to be like or about, and what I actually have done. Some years it's a more pleasant process than others. Closing out 2015 was rough; it yielded so much discomfort that it begged close, slow examination. 

What this has meant for us at Cyril's is that instead of sprinting into the New Year, big dreamy guns blazing, we've been asking ourselves a lot of questions. Questions about what we do, how we do it, why we do it and- the compass for it all- who we are becoming. Though my fear of missing out (no I didn't meant to write FOMO) has been prodding me to speed up and get back to the doing, this slower approach feels so much steadier that it hasn't been as hard as I thought it would to stay the course. 

I'm looking forward to seeing what we commit to as a team in the coming weeks and also to sharing our plans with you sometime.... soon(ish).